I haven’t changed, and I won’t change. This is my firm decision that I've made in my life.

I'm still the same person I've always been...

I still believe in love, happiness, and goodness...

However, I’ve learned to be more realistic... I've learned to protect myself from pain, to be more independent...

I fully realize that people come, go, and pass through our lives, and that everyone has their role and time. We are all phases in each other's lives... Therefore, I don’t need to exert immense effort to prove who I am. Otherwise, I’d be stuck in an endless cycle of validations.

Those who want to stay close to me will always find a vast space that accommodates all their dreams and hopes. Those who find happiness away from me, so be it. We all depart inevitably... I sincerely wish them happiness and peace of mind.

It's been a long time since I gambled on my place in anyone's heart... It's been a while since I put myself in that position. I no longer depend on my standing in others' hearts as a source of my happiness. I've shifted towards preserving myself and my heart. I protect myself from the burdens of expectations and excessive attachment to people... I shield myself from disappointments... I no longer expect much, which allows me to appreciate every moment that comes into my life without major expectations. I truly cherish it.

I’m not perfect... I'm still susceptible to loss and disappointments...

I will never bear the idea of thinking I'm special in someone's life, only to discover that it’s just illusions. A mirage that seems to be the only source, only to vanish forever... I know people change, circumstances change, and life in all its courses changes... I have always operated and will always operate from this perspective... I always look ahead with gratitude for the times passed... leaving them peacefully behind.

Many believe that ending relationships is one of my easiest tools... But they haven't realized that so much pain taught me that chances are limited for everyone, including myself... The only alternative to pain is to permanently close its doors without looking back, even for a moment. With all the love and best wishes...

In the end, I am here, at the tip of my fingers, passing with the quiet of the night. Living my life, avoiding hopeful illusions, ready to leave anything that might hurt me... I might seem like I'm cautiously navigating a minefield, but it's a necessary step to maintain my emotional and psychological well-being. I know that forgetting memories is impossible... They appear to illuminate my soul momentarily and then vanish... Sometimes, they engrave a yearning for the past in my heart. But I quickly move past those memories with all appreciation and optimism for what's to come.