When our friends and loved ones, who have settled in our hearts, are in pain, we feel utterly helpless before them. Firstly, because we can't alleviate their pain, the feeling of helplessness to do anything, even if it seems simple. And secondly, because we cannot conceal our emotions. The pain that afflicts us at that moment is indescribable in its magnitude, and no standards of venting or seeking healing through even writing apply to it. It is beyond what the mind can comprehend; a pain that you cannot identify its direction, or in which organs it lies and ravages. Fire runs in the veins, burning all cells.

Your breath chokes, hindering thinking, even vision. A lump fills the soul, preventing it from taking flight, wrenching your heart with pain. You cry for seconds and hold back tears for hours. You craft a smile, striving and exerting energy to appear as if it fills your heart, and perhaps the universe with laughter. And no one sees what's behind it of countless collapses. A moan fills the world that no mind can grasp; it lashes, breaks, tickles, shatters you to become flying ashes. The breath does not escape, trapped, refusing to leave you, only adding to your pain with its fire.

You lose yourself and everything around you. Everyone thinks you are the epitome of strength when you are at your most fragile, looking for anything to lean on. The night comes to be a darkness that cloaks everything in its blackness, no stars, no moon. You cannot escape it, nor do you know where to. For darkness engulfs you. Sleep aligns with it and swears not to let your eyes touch it, so you find the mind refusing to continue walking with you. It's exhausted, preferring to stand alone and close its doors without you. You find yourself on the road alone, stripped of everything that sustains life. Vision fades gradually.

People become ghosts, and the walls close in on you more and more, almost burying you. Everything you see intends to choke you. You can't speak, you don't possess stories, and you don't even have the ability to reassure yourself. Because you yourself don't believe in yourself.